?

Log in

Previous 10

Jan. 1st, 2008

falling apart

The Art of Listening 1/?

Title: The Art of Listening
Author: bizochplez
Pairing: Ryden
Rating: NC-17 overall each chapter will have its own rating
Disclaimer: Psh. Yah because we all totally own our favorite celebrities and get to have them all stuffed up in out closets when we feel like writing about them. 
Summary: Sometimes silence doesn’t speak words. Sometimes it’s silence that drowns the true meaning behind the actions. Sometimes all we need is someone to break that silence.

Dec. 10th, 2007

falling apart

(no subject)

 I just totally stole this from a friend (you know who you are) and I'm bored so yay

1. What are you listening to right now?
The Offspring

2. What song makes you sad?
Hold Me Down; Motion city soundtrack

3. What is the most annoying song in the world?
oh! Um.... god whats it called. Shit i cant remember!

4. Your all time favorite band?
hm..... my chem and thrice.... I think?

5. Your newly discovered band is?
Senses Fail

6. Best female voice?
My little sister

7. Best male voice?
hm..... well honestly I don't know. it depends on my mood

8. Music type you find yourself listening to most?
Alternitive/Hardcore/Emo/Indie

9. What do you listen to, to hype you up?
Depends really.... how bout.... rise against

10. What do you listen to when you want to calm down?
I'm not an addict; Relient K

11. Last gig/concert you went to?
Korn

12. Band you find yourself listening to the most right now?
Thrice

13. Most hated band?
Most of the pop bands

14. Song that makes you think?
I think about all the lyrics I hear

15. Band that you think the world should love as much as you do?
hm....

16. Coolest music video?
Sorry, not into the whole music video thing. I like to percive things on my own.

17. Music video with the most babe watch?
looks at 16

18. What do you play/would you play in the bedroom to spice things up?
haha. 

19. Can you play a musical instrument?
a bit of guitar, violin, cello, a bit of base

20. Ever been in a mosh pit?
Yep. First time, got my nose broken and my hand than my friend tried to pull me out, got nailed and passed out on top of me.

21. Are you in a band?
Working on it

24. Do you wish yourself that you were a musician?
yah...sometimes.

25. Best chick band you know of?
I'm more into the sound of guys really.... but I really like Alanis Morissette

26. Last song that you heard on the radio/cd...etc...?
Oh gee.... I'm thinking Why don't you get a Job? by the Offsprin

27. What do you think of Classical music?
I like it sometimes. I can play it and stuff-- but I like words better

28. What do you think of Country music?
*stabs self*

29. What do you think of Death metal?
I can handle it sometimes

30. Last BIG band that you saw live?
oh jee. I guess you could call korn big

31. Are you a groupie?
haha. Sure. Totally. I get it on every night

32. Do you listen to music in foreign languages?
I've tried... it gave me a headache

33. What famous musician would you like to fuck?!?
ohhhh.... well I'm gonna have to go with Ryan Ross or Frankie Iero

34. Worst concert moment?
When my little sister disappeared and someone was like "holy shit theres someone DOWN there!"

35. Funny concert moment?
eh. My friend got pegged with a beer bottle in the head....

36. Sad concert moment?
mmm.... when some kid got nailed by the big guys

37. Best local act you can think of?
oh jeez. i don't like any of the shit rolling from here. It's all country. I guess I liked my friend bob's band though

38. If you were a musical instrument what would you be?
Eee... I know this doesn't count, but being strummed or banged doesn't sound so appealing to me, so a mic

39. Do you listen to the radio?
yah. Need noise

40. Do you watch music TV?
nope. No tv for me

41. Do you follow the music charts, like the top 40?
hahahahahaha

42. Have you met any famous musicians?
nah

43. Are any of your friends/family/etc. musicians?
def

44. Song that best describes your feelings right now?
The Used- The Bird and the Worm (Today sucked fyi)

45. Song that describes your life?
Thrice- The Artist in the Ambulence

46. Do you know the names of all the band members that you listen to?
used to but not so much

47. Does a musician's physical attractiveness play a role in the music that you listen to?
oh yes, because I only listen to hott guys make out with mics. NO

48. What famous musician do you want to marry?
That would fucking suck. Noooooo way

49. Favourite movie sound track?
donnie darko

50. Any musician pet hates?
fuck it

51. What do your parents listen to?
daddy: a big mix really
mommy: do christmas songs count?

52. What are you listening to right NOW?
I'm thinkin AFI (OLD STUFF)

53. Do you wear band etc T-shirts?
nah

54. What do you think of people who do?
Sure. I would if I could. But my parents don't like that stuff

55. What music sub-culture do you feel like you belong to?
I'm not into that

56. What song is stuck in your head right now?
Some song the phone plays when it rings

57. Do you sing in the shower?
nah

58. If so, what? If not, why not?
cuz I tend to choke on the bubbles

59. Would you rather marry a musician or be one yourself?
be one

60. How important is your partners taste in music to you?
gah. Well I'm into new things

61. Hanson moves in next door to you, do you go introduce?
probably.

62. Sex, drugs, and rock 'n roll, you dig?
meh, yah

63. Do you cook to music?
I don't cook. Me plus oven equals death

Dec. 9th, 2007

falling apart

Promise me a mess

Title: Promise me a mess
Author: bizochplez
Rating: Undecided. Probably NC-17 at a point.
Paring: Ryan/Bren, Ryan/Pete Wentz
Summary: It’s going to be long. I don’t want to give it all away but I will to get people interested. Ryan and Brendon are the perfect couple. Brendon’s been courting Ryan for a year and Ryan finally gives in. They’re everything anyone could have hoped for. Bren comes out to the world despite Ryan’s wishes. His parents disapprove and Bren picks them over Ryan. Pete comes around to pick up the pieces but Bren never really wanted to let go.
 

Dec. 7th, 2007

falling apart

Promise me a mess

 I've got this promise that I've made to someone really close to me. but in order to keep it I have to break a promise. But I've promised not to break any promises. So I'm fucked. 
I made a promise to a friend that I wouldn't do anything with anyone else because I love them (they aren't with me anymore) but I made a promise to a friend that I would help his fantasy come true-- and his fantasy means that I have to do something with his girlfriend and him. The person first person I promised made it clear to me that if I ever broke a promise there would be no chance of us again. So here's my problem. In order to keep my promise to my friends fantasy I have to break my promise to the guy I love. In order to have the love of the guy I love I can't break that promise.
And I have no clue what to do about it.
Fucking promises.

Dec. 6th, 2007

falling apart

(no subject)

 
Title: Dominate Me
Author:
bizochplez
Pairing: Frankie/Gerard, Mikey/Frankie, David Desrosiers/Frankie (3 somes included)
Rating: NC-17
POV: Frankies
Summary: Frankie is a slave to Gerard—and he likes it. He likes being dominated and beaten, he loves being Gerard’s property. But Gerard likes to do what he will with his property. And he likes to share.
 

Dec. 4th, 2007

Cranky

My Best Friends Boyfriend

Okay-- my bestfriends boyfriend's name is Bob. I call him Bobert. 
Bobert is this total kiss ass guy who's perfect for my sweet, goody-two shoes, best friend Dedra. They'er so fuckign cute together-- you can't help but stare.
So, I'm bi, but decisively straight for this guy I'll call Lucus. We broke up recently and Bobert decided to confront me on liking Dedra. Now I don't mind or anything-- because sure I've had a crush on her for like... five years... but whate gets me is Bobert's told people. I don't tell people because I don't-- can't-- deal with the shit from it.
I've got a bad past with abusive girlfriends and bullys and shit.
So Bobert and I have been getting really close-- he's my best fucking friend right now. But he's started airing out my fucking shit so people will leave us alone. I would never date Bob-- he's my best friends boyfriend for gods sake. The guy is perfect for any chick-- but that's bullshit. No one shoudl ever pull that.
So recently I've been over to Bob's sisters house alone with him. The whole time he talked on the phone with Dedra and I slept on the couch. He came over to my house and we were home alone and he played Assasin's Creed while I did homework. We practically live together now-- but it's nothing like what people think. 
So Bob's mom has grounded him from me.
"Do you like Jade?"
"No."
"Does Jade like you?"
"Not as far as I know-- since she likes my girlfriend."
I mean I don't mind or anything-- okay so I do-- but what gets me is I don't even know Bob's mom. And she's a fucking homophobe. So now Bob has to fucking lie to his mom (he doesn't like her but I don't like that he's lying for me) so we can still hang out.
And check this out-- my ex Lucas (who I still love) thinks I'm doing it with Bob. So he's attempting to hook up with my friend Cassie when he promised me he would wait.
GRRRRRRRRRRR RANT TIME

Nov. 19th, 2007

falling apart

Family Yes?

Family is something I've never regretted having-- I knwo that they're always going to be here and all that shit. but is it because they care or because they have to be? Sometimes I dont know. An dI aknowledge that it changes depending on who it's with and what family it's with. but it's hard...
My family has everything-- because my parents worked to make it that way. But what frustrating is all my freinds who dont have anything-- they HAVE a family. They have someone who cares and listens to them and supports them like they say they will. I knwo they have all their fights and shit but when it comes down to it they turn aroudn and say that they love they're parents more then anything in the world. And they're thankful for them.
I... guess I just don't understand. Each of us are great as individuals... but we suck as a family. We fall apart and fight and hate. And we put up these walls that we cry about. But we can't take them down because we don't want to be beaten up for actually caring. But we don't have any problems-- we're just messed up inside. 
I love my family... or no... I love the concept of having a family. I guess. I don't know....

Nov. 18th, 2007

falling apart

Beautiful boy

Beaultiful Boy I've always wondered
We're you belong and where your going
If I should come
Or if I should leave
But I know where you belong
I know where you're going

Your going to see paradise boy
That's where you belong
And I know that because the tv screen told me so

You've always thought me crazy and I know
Cuz I've agreeed when you've said that I dont know
But baby I knwo for onceWhy you left me behind

You need the beauty that I don't have
And I've seen it now
I've heard it and tasted it
And you and I just aren't the same

You're going there beautiful boy
I know where you belong
You belong in a heaven
Where the world is never wrong

falling apart

Diet Everything

my family used to drink nothing diet and eat nothing diet. But this wierd thing has happened to my family lately-- this salad and diet drink thing that I can't explain. I guess it's really frustrating to me because it's like every time I pick up one of these diet sodas it wears a face sayign that I'm fat. And I need the diet to get thin.
We're not a fat family at all-- were biult pretty big but we stay skinny. it's average for us. But I guess being around all those super skinny people made us change some how. I got over starving and throwing up and started living normal like I should be. And I was excelling like that. My friends where happier because I was happier. Then my sister started-- and now my mom. And my dad. It's frustrating because we always say we aren't goign to be affected by what people say-- but we're saying them right back in our head.
I would love to be a size 0-- but it's not possible in my family. We have really wide hips and we all know it-- but we're still fighting it. Everytime we're asked regular or diet we say diet. And I hate it. But it keeps coming right out of our mouths. Like something is WRONG with being a size 5, a 7, an 8, a 9 or a 12. There's nothing wrong with it-- because people are beautiful for who they are. Not what they are. 
But we still conform and do like we're told. And we don't even think about it. It's frustrating. 
Its okay to be normal isn't it?

Nov. 5th, 2007

Cranky

(no subject)

Title: The Blood on the Ceiling
Rating: PG-13 through NC-17
Pairing: : Frankie/Mikey Frankie/Gerard Frankie/Billie Joe
Summary: Frankie is in an insane assylem for the things Gerard did to him. Billie Joe is in with him and falling harder then a rock, Mikey just shows up for comfort. What happens when Gerard wants Frankie back? And won't let go until he has him?

Previous 10